i am back and i am not happy

holaaaaaaa.......

am back. i gained my original weight back when i first started in december 2006 - slightly 2 or 3 kilos higher, due to the massive amount of food intakes and a very sendentary lifestyle.

feeling guilty, you bet. hate myself, not quite.

so yesterday in the attempt to work on my passion to have a healthy lifestyle - passion needs to be worked out!- i bought 2 weight watchers magazines and a harvard business review book on managing your time. the magazines were intended to stimulate my interest in healthy lifestyle, while the HBR book - i feel that im somewhat pretty much laid back, i tend to blame that i don't have enough time.

oh another reason, i just got back from ha noi last friday - i love that place, but i felt intimidated in that place- or rather, i felt intimidated by the way hanoians -correct?- looked at me. you don't really get a big-sized person in hanoi. so everywhere i go, they were like staring and giggling and violently laughing. i tried to keep cool and you know, being all 'you can't put me down' look, but still, i feel like gulliver.

and i am not happy.